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2007-02-14
3-4-06 Life continues I continue. This is one of the hardest times of my life yet I continue. I must. Everyone must. For while we may not understand, while we may be angry at the world, it is only because death is the one thing none of us still living can speak about with any true knowledge. It scares us, we fear it. Yet one of the things I remember about both my parents' dying days - was the fact that neither seemed afraid. Granted they did not know they were about to die yet somehow - looking back -
I now get the sense they were aware the time was near. Especially Mom - the day
she died. Every one of the 26 days she was with us she'd ask "Why am I still
alive? My Mother died at 51 and my Dad at 57 - why am I still here?" I think she knew - and was happy. Not afraid. Not scared. But happy. So I must continue until my body gets tired of living - in this world....so... Last Sunday I completed 2 songs I had started recently - one being the poem I wrote for Mom's funeral bulletin which you can read on the home page to arnybarn. The other was My Decatur My Hometown. I need to re-record them but am satisfied I have what has been playing in my
head these past weeks and months. To reply ; email me at arnybarn@aol.com and I will post it here with my comments.
3-1-06 Dubai Georgie - If it wasn't so important - I might let myself smile and say "We told you so" as more comes out each day regarding the deal to allow United Arab Emirates (UAE) to take over our ports. It has always been about money with both Bush administrations and now even Republican radio nor the Republican controlled Congress cannot find a way to spin this to support Bush and Cheney. But what are we to do? We have 3 years left with this guy! This is like trying to teach our only employee how to do his job the correct way in 3 lessons or less. It is like when I have hired someone at work and realize after a while that this person is in over their head in regards to having the ability to perform the duties required by the job. I might be incorrect but I believe the last President with an approval rating of 37% was Richard M. Nixon. Unfortunately the Founding Fathers did not leave us the ability to terminate a bad "Employee" and post his job in the Sunday paper. Unless he commits a crime. I really don't think Bush has committed any crimes except those of ignorance. He might be greedy - but I'm not sure about that either. I think I'll stick with the ignorance factor.... I pray for this country. Many families have lost their loved ones because of this man. He once made the statement we would not support countries that supported terrorists - Dubai is one of the largest financers of terrorism in the past 15 years. I know - let's give them control over our sea ports of our most important cities. Yeah that makes sense. I still believe this is a good country despite it's inept and greedy leaders. Love to all - Dave To reply ; email me at arnybarn@aol.com and I will post it here with my comments.
02/16/06 It's been an eye opening week. Death has a way of proving the only control one has is their next breath. And sometimes that isn't even possible. People can be cruel and take advantage of you at the blink of an eye. For what reason? We are all one - and when you take advantage of someone else - you only take
advantage of yourself. Money! Power! Being in control! As I've said before - it's all an illusion - every bit of life only exists in your mind. So sleep knowing that tomorrow - we can make it all up one more time! Peace - Dave
02/12/06 I'm back - I'm alive and I will survive like I've always have. And be here for you to depend upon. I have lost the two humans who gave me life to communicate and entertain all of you these past 50 years. Now they are gone. Gone. Gone from our ability to understand their continued existence. But I'm still here - you are still here - and together we will take our shared love and move to make a future my parents - and your parents and their parents will be proud of. Forever. In the days and weeks ahead - we will get back to creating as loving a future and as loving memories as we can possibly be capable of creating. It's time to move forward. I love you all. Dave
01/17/06 At 4:31 a.m. PST January 17th, 1994 we were rudely shaken from our slumber with the violent thrashings of the 6.6 magnitude earthquake. We lived in Chatsworth, California - only 4 miles from the epicenter in Northridge. It was the most frightening experience of my life. The first quake was followed by a 2nd strong 5.8 I think. I said, no screamed in the dark, "We're getting the hell out of California!!!" That was 12 years and a couple of lifetimes ago. Now I am thankful for the experience and also thankful that it motivated us to leave L.A. - quitting our jobs - and moved to wonderful Nashville, TN and the wonderful people and friends we would have otherwise have missed meeting.
So even during what may seem like insurmountable obstacles in your life -
remember that it could just be that one thing that motivates you towards the
happiness you seek! Always - Dave
12/23/05
Well, this has been quite a year! My nephew Jay married his wonderful Joy and
are expecting baby "J" (name to be a surprise). Found out I will be without a
job sometime in the next few months - my position duties will be handled in
Tacoma, Washington. They offered to move us and I said quickly...."Uh, No!" We all watched my Dad's health deteriorate and sadly on Nov. 2nd, on my sister's birthday, he died from lung cancer. This family, one that is as close as a family can be, is having a hard time coping. But we have survived many problems and will survive this.
So twice this year, I have felt the love and comfort of a lifetime of
friendships! Coming to my side as I needed them! Money can buy a lot of things
for Christmas but I have received my gift many times over this year! Thank you
all! Microsoft has improved Visual Basic and I am reinvigorated in my desire to learn more programming! I'll share that on this web site as well, including a total revamp of the site. Our daughter turns 25 in April and Deb and I are returning to Vegas again too! Deb's nephew gets married in June. Then there's the uncertainty of my job - which at this point I don't have time for!! So lots to look forward to and lots to live for! Everyone have a peaceful, safe and happy Christmas and check back often! love - Dave
12-03-05 I'm collecting my thoughts these days since my Dad's death 11/2 and will soon be updating this with wonderful, life altering insight. Well, maybe not that drastic but stay tuned..... :>) Dave
10-05-05 Leading or Following - the lesson of Vince & Dave We learned 2 important life lessons back in choir from Ruth helen Burlison and Elaine Crowder;
2) Learn when to follow
!) People make a choice to take their time to come hear you sing/perform so it is a performer's responsibility to be prepared. I have always tried to not waste my audience's time but one time I did and I regret it to this day. Pat Tosetti and I were chosen for Homecoming Assembly to sing "Play Me" by Neil Diamond - I unfortunately got strep throat but was so determined I went on stage anyway. I could barely talk let alone sing, and amid snickers and laughs completed the song. Two negative outcomes came from that - 1) Pat never performed on stage with me again and 2) When Senior Class day came and I was to sing "Only the Beginning" - I got strep and the band at the last minute got Sally Brown to sing - using a lyric sheet. I played guitar but my heart was broken but I learned a lesson! 2) The sound a choir makes is deceiving. It sounds like ONE voice but in reality it is many voices leading and following each other all at the same time. This all came back to me performing at my 50th birthday party. I had been belting out song after song, but when Vince came up to sing Country Road -all that old training came back. As an accompanist I had to back off the strumming and also as a vocalist listen to Vince's entrances to each line. If you watch the video He too was watching my mouth to catch my entrances into each line. It literally is a dance back and forth - give and take - that comes together to produce a oneness that resulted in the audience believing we had rehearsed the song - we had not. Now stop and think how you can apply that to your daily life whether driving to work, engaging in conversation, or standing in front of co-workers giving a presentation. Later in the 2nd set I asked Vince what we should sing and he said confidently "Dave, just sing, I will follow...." Dave
10-01-05 Except for this darn arthritis, this is a pretty darn good time of my life. Not only because of the wonderful birthday party, but having Paul McCartney come out with the best album he's ever done, and now - last night taking my wonderful wife to see Sir Elton John for her birthday! It was as they say on those TV Bachelor shows - Amazing! He started out doing all the songs off his latest CD Peachtree Road, a very nice collection of songs that I recommend taking a listen to. Then with one Chord, the crowd knew which song and went wild - Benny and the Jets! Funeral for a Friend, Daniel, Sorry Seems to be the Hardest Word, Bitch is Back, he did them all except one, Candle in the Wind which I'd heard he was not going to do anymore after Diana's death. The talent, the piano playing, was every bit as good as I remember when Greg Pryor and I went to see him back in I guess 1976 in Chicago? He can't quite hit the high notes anymore but that's OK - Nigel on drums and Davey on guitar - I teared up several times thankful to have the chance to see this master one more time. My generation has been so fortunate. We have during our lives have the Lennon & McCarney's, the John & Taupins, Paul Simon, Billy Joel and rounding out James Taylor. They are the Beethovens, Mozarts, Bachs of our day. The music they've created will last centuries as did those masters. Yes, i know I left out a lot but seriously the ones above are light years ahead of the likes of Mick Jaggar, Eric Clapton, Steve Winwood - all fine musicians but not the composers of our time.
You can tell everybody, this is your song. It may be quite simple but now that
its done. Thank you Elton, Reginald Dwight, for some of the music of my life. Dave
9/18/05 Keep checking in the days ahead for more videos of the party, a discussion of the War in Iraq and Afghanistan, Katrina, and our country's deficit spending, and Leading or Following - the lesson Vince and Dave teach us all..... thanks to Elaine Crowder and Ruth-Helen Burlison. The world is a dangerous and scary place and I know there maybe are more important things to discuss - but life does go on all over the world and we can only take care of our small piece of reality. Enjoy every moment! Dave
9/16/05 Now see the video of Dave & Vince Singing Country Road for the first time in over 20 years!!!
9/15/05 First video of the party - the highly requested California Dreamin - unrehearsed an spontaneously wonderful! Let me know what you think in the Arnybarn Chat Page I am working on a Flash version for those non-Windows people - let me know if you have trouble viewing these videos - Okie Dokey? Also working on a Windows Media Player embedded version - working? Dave
9/13/05 What a day - Lots happened today but let's talk about the positive. By chance this morning I heard Paul McCartney had a new album, sorry, new CD being released today. Taking a long lunch break I go to Best Buy and purchase the Special Edition that includes a DVD. My focus has been IF I lived long enough to be 50, and put on the best concert I'd ever done with my family and friends there, that would be it. I had fulfilled my purpose. Paul's "Chaos and Creation in the Backyard" is the BEST solo album he's ever made in his 63 years. The DVD with explanations on how he wrote each song reminded me of the concert I gave at my party where between songs I would explain each song. I am so inspired by this it is hard to put into words. My creative days are NOT over. I pledge to my family, friends and the Universe, that like Paul, by this time next year you will hear Dave's version of "Chaos and Creation". I still have music left in me! I've got songs to create! Dave
9/5/05 Awoke this morning to President Bush announcing he was nominating John Roberts to replace William Rehnquist as Chief Justice of the Supreme Court. Roberts had just a few weeks ago been nominated to replace Sandra Day O'Connor who announced her desire to retire. She will stay on until a replacement is confirmed by Congress. Confirmation hearings on Roberts replacing O'Connor were scheduled to begin tomorrow. Now it will be for Chief Justice. One of Rehnquist's unfulfilled goals was to overturn Roe v Wade - the case that allows abortions and choice for women. John Roberts was a clerk many years ago for..... William Rehnquist. Rehnquist and O'Connor were very instrumental in the decision during the 2000 election to stop the recount of votes in Florida.
Now I am just speculating but consider for a minute that the President had been
given the prognosis by Rehnquist that he was not expected to live through the
summer. Bush, whose popularity is at an all time low did not want to suffer a
defeat of nominating a Chief Justice. Rehnquist passed Saturday night - Hearings start this week and when The Court convenes in early October, John Roberts will sit as Chief Justice, and at his side because no replacement has been confirmed sits....Sandra Day O'Conner. Wonder how long it will take for a case to be presented that will overthrow Roe v Wade?
Any chance this was not Bush's plan all along? Time will tell.
8/30/05 Yeah I woke up several times - we had some pretty scary winds for a couple of hours. But I am humbled by the devastation I see on the news of Louisiana, & Mississippi. No food, water or electricity. We have placed so much of our everyday life on the comforts afforded us by the existence of electricity - cell phones, the internet, electric stoves and ovens - heat and air conditioning. And in a matter of minutes - it can all be gone. Take a moment to give thanks for being spared the pain our fellow human beings are going through in those states.....
8/29/05 Katrina hit Mississippi more than NOLA - but it still looks lousy. We here in middle TN brace for Tropical winds of 30-50 mph and 3-6 inches of rain. Forecast to hit us around 1 AM in the morning - I'm a light sleeper anyway so I can see it will be a long night in ARNYBARN Land. :>) Take care everyone!
9 pm 8/28/05 - Our thoughts and prayers go out for the people of New Orleans. May they be kept safe from harm during this Category 5 Hurricane Katrina. It's a great beautiful city we visited a couple of years ago and I'm afraid it will never be the same. Dave
8/27/05 Hard to believe it's already been 3 weeks since the big party. Of course I've lamented about this and that. Like, did I get around to talk and spend enough time with everyone? And the songs I wish I had done - like a duet of "Yes It Is" with my sister Judy or "Danny's Song" if I could have coaxed Brandy to come up and sing with me.... and my latest song I just completed writing - "My Decatur, My Hometown" - oh well look for that soon on this web site! But it still was an unbelievable night and I will be getting the DVD of the party sometime this coming week. Hope everyone is enjoying the web site - I took a class in Flash MX and so you now see the spinning ARNYBARN logo at the top of each page - I learned how to do that in this class. More to come from that also. And that is what is exciting about getting up each and every day - the finding out of what is "More to Come...." Peace Dave
8/08/05 THE CIRCLE OF LIFE Saturday night August 6th, in Decatur, Illinois my 50th birthday was celebrated with some 50 of the truest, most loyal, friends and family anyone could be blessed with. We had dinner and I provided two 45 minute sets of music filled with songs from our shared past. All of our lives since those days have moved forward in many other directions, yet it took mere seconds for that time to evaporate and our lives merged once again. It serves to reinvigorate, re-energize in me and in them I felt - ALL that WAS that got us together again in the same place again from so long ago. With a hug I knew this one or that one still loved me as if it was 35 years ago and I them. When Vince and I sang for the first time in I'm certain over 25 years - our voices blended immediately and we knew where and when to harmonize and when to hold back - I almost started crying during the first song, Country Road by James Taylor. We had not even seen each other in 15 years yet it was like instinct. My Dad kept telling me "Now son, you two practiced yesterday - you had to!" No Dad- I wasn't even sure who was even coming to the party! I'll only mention what happened with Vince because that night, in many other ways, I had the same "blending" with others I had not seen in ages and I don't want to omit any but just let them know how MUCH their being there meant to me! We haven't remained friends because of anything I did for them or they did for me. We ARE friends because we are - and always will be - period. And the same is true for those who, for whatever reason life brought their way, could not come to the party. The connection still IS. It was a blend of families and friends that covered different time periods on my life yet the one common denominator for all was not me so much but OUR music. So that is why you see on this site now, and more to come - songs from OUR past and present. But what I came away with most from Saturday night is not a trip back to what was. All of us created a NEW memory that night! I love you all! - Dave
3/29/05 Day 2 In Vegas OH MY GAWD EVERYONE!!!
3/28/05 Dave & Debbie's trip to Las Vegas - Debbie attends a conference that is held In Las Vegas most years. I usually am stuck at home with Butterscotch for 4 1/2 days but this time I got to tag along. The following is a daily summary of the trip. Dave Day 1 in Las Vegas;
2/17/05 Getting off the Merry-Go-Round One of the certainties in life is that a moment happens when you realize that you have done this very thing several times before. You realize that the outcome has been the same every time. The only way to not experience that outcome again .....is to force yourself off the Merry-Go-Round. All of a sudden, you are out of your mind and living in the moment. You are not trying to change the past and that outcome that has always occurred, but now looking to see what can be - living with a new direction. What am I talking about? Whatever you read into what I am saying - what it means to you. It could be as simple as getting up at 6:15 every day and today - getting up at 5:30.... Or fixing yourself some toast instead of a bagel in the morning..... Leaving that comfortable job for one that is unknown..... Or caring enough about someone to let them go - because honestly they say the same thing, experience the same dramas, only the calendar is different. Then the sun seems brighter, the air smells fresher, and sleep comes easily. That moment WILL happen - it always does. Peace, Dave
1/29/05 It's been a long week. Last Sunday a member of everyone's family died, Johnny Carson. Even though he was 79,and even though he'd been in poor health, it still was shockingly sad to know that, as they said when Lincoln died, "Now he belongs to the ages". Johnny kept me company many nights while growing up and going through the times and trials of my life. It was a comfort to know, to look forward to 10:30 pm when I could forget whatever that particular day had brought and have Johnny make me laugh. Even when he wasn't funny - that was funny too. When we moved to California, my sister in law came to visit. One of her friends from Junior High or High School, Mike Jackson, worked for NBC and got Debbie and me tickets to the Tonight Show. As it turned out we got to sit in the first row! Ed McMahan was standing right in front of me!! It was amazing the precision with which the show was run. Down to the second and before you realized it the music played.....Da, da, da, da ,da.....And Now....HEEEEERREE's JOHNNY!!! He came out from behind the curtain just as I'd seen him do it thousands of times before! But while you think he's out in the middle all by himself, just 4-5 feet away stood the guy holding the mike boom and Fred DeCordova the producer. There's also a stool with a glass of water - which he didn't use. During one joke he said something that caused Debbie to shout "No way" or something like that - Johnny looked over directly at her and said "No, really!!" and smiled. I am so thankful I got to go to at least one taping and will remember it always. He may be gone but we will always remember Johnny as one of the family. Dave
01/20/05 Well, the inauguration of the 2nd term of the 43rd President George W. Bush. 1,400 American's have been killed in the Iraq war. His approval rating sits at 49% - some 2% less than the high registered 11/2/04 (election day....hmmmm?). Am I hopeful? Always! It is my nature. It has gotten me through 49 1/2 years of this struggle. But, America - we can and will do better! Who will lead us? Keep your eyes wide open! It could even be YOU reading this entry!!! I, Dave Colvin, do solemnly swear, to uphold the office of President of the United States and to the best of my ability, preserve , protect and defend the constitution of the United States so help me God! Whoops - so help me not-associated with the government creator being of the universe...... Dave
01/08/05 Well, it's a new year and since Thursday Jan. 6th - George W. Bush is officially re-elected to a 2nd term. The House and the Senate met to certify the states' electoral votes but a challenge to Ohio's votes was placed by several House members and one Senator, Barbara Boxer from California. Since election day I have been studying, calculating and reviewing all the data I could get my little computer hands on from Ohio's and Florida's voting returns. Without repeating detail you can find in the 102 page report filed by Rep. John Conyers - I too believe there were voting irregularities AND outright manipulation of the vote totals in those 2 states. Was Bush directly involved? I seriously doubt it. But I do believe overly zealous supporters of his re-election did what they could to make him "win". Much has been made over the variance in exit polls showing a Kerry victory in not only those 2 states, but also 51-49% nationwide. These exit polls have always been accurate in the past, despite what "republican conservative" radio claims and there is no reason to believe they were not correct this time. The Bush administration even praised the exit polls in the Ukraine for revealing that the first vote in that country for it's new President was wrong. Exit polls are the most accurate double check we have to verify our current system of voting. Zogby International, known for it's accuracy in polling, late Tuesday night, Nov. 2nd, gave Kerry a victory with 311 electoral votes. What happened? Something did happen and it was not that Bush received more votes. A statistical reversal in a matter of 2 hours - in some instances of 7% points - turned a Kerry victory into a Bush win. Zogby and Mitovski, another polling group used a large sampling. With larger samplings, it reduces the famous "Margin of Error" we always hear about. In this case that MOE was less than 1%. Unheard of - usually one sees a MOE of 3-4% + or -. Sworn testimony from hundreds of voters using "Touch screen" machines, stated they would vote for Kerry, but the vote registered for Bush. This occurred in many states. Other instances of machines deducting Kerry votes and adding them to Bush's total. Bush is president for 4 more years. We've been told to "get over it" by the Vice President. Thanks to Senator Boxer and the House democrats for reminding America that democrats love this country every bit as much as republicans do. A full investigation is needed however, into what really caused the exit polls to be "incorrect". Later - Dave
12/25/04 Merry Christmas!!! Last night at the 10:30 service at St. Mark's Episcopal Church (I am webmaster for.....) I sang "The Christmas Dinner" a song I performed with Vince Thomalla in December of 1972 at the MacArthur High School Christmas Choir program. I did not write the song rather it was on the Peter, Paul, and Mommy LP written by Peter Yarrow. It is the song of a homeless child finding another lonely soul and sharing what food they had with each other on Christmas Eve. It was a song of hope for me back then - a new beginning. It still speaks to me that way today.....
12/19/04 Let's start with a letter to the editor I wrote to the Nashville Tennessean in regards to their editorial supporting the recount of votes in Ohio from the November 2nd election......
I'll explain this letter in detail soon - Arnybarn |